wats hapening?
my days are so fuckng quiet
wat m i 2 do
headache
pain
hw long this will last?
tinking of tat fuckng gerl
hating her so much
aah...
i shudn care nymore
i hav my own life
y shud i care bout hers
so many things in my head
im startng 2 feel pain again?
huh?
wth hapend
im nt okay
so alone
y care bout nybody wen i m nt cared



haizz............

ytd was out from morning till late.
went to xing juans house with ameng to do phy project,
but ended up looking at her photos n was bored.
wasted an hour there.
after tat met edz, mel, torzai, n hazwani in the library.
they doing pro oso..
me, edz n ameng went 2 eat at banquet.
n we came back, the rest go home alrdy.
so we sat down 4 awhile.
wana do emaths.
but dint know wat qns need 2 do.
so.went 2 cwp.
look2.
prank call lots of ppl.
haha. edzs idea.
while waiting 4 sophia 2 be back,
we went 2 joshs house playd 360 n com.
n had a realy bad headache.
long tym nvr play game.
halo2 made me dizzy...
it was around 7.
took a cab 2 sops condo.
went up.
edz gt a shock!
felicia came out n edz tot it was sophia!
haa..
sophia WAS SLEEPING....ZzZzzZZzz......
she quickly gt ready.
n we went down.
its been a long tym tat i last swam..
gt in the pool.
find tat the water was a bit too cold.
n nt long after tat.
I WAS FREEZING....
sat on the chair. shaking...
haha...
after tat.
sop went up 1st.
edz n i go into the saona, the hot room.
n we plan 2 dry our shorts b4 going out.
n he suddenly askd me a shocking qn,
tat i nvr imagine he would ask.
so, i ansd him.
HAPPY NOW THAN BEFORE.
:)
we went up.
n was hungry.
sops big sis walkd in w her bf.
n we walkd 2 mac'd.
had a burger.
n receivd a call.
went home on edzs dad car.
he was a nice dad.
reachd home.
qn n ans session.
my mum was angry.
askd alot.
but i knew she was just concern
I LOVE HER.
she was worried.
n i jus answer her qns...
no lies..
i hate lies..
cos i learnt tat one lie wud lead to another....
so i tried my best never 2 lie.
washd up.
n sleep.

suddenly so. . . .
is it wrong of me. . .
happy. . . . .

BORED BORED DAY IS TODAY!!!

nothing 2 do..
dear diary performing 2day..
but, nvr go..
decided not 2..
wanted 2 rest..
after the common tests..

i'm startng 2 miss having somone by my side.
who i can talk to.
share my problems with.
atleast someone who cares bout me.
someone who i can spend time with.
so, i wont get bored.
may not be a close fren.
JUST someone who i can talk to.
cos i may hav alot of problems now...

n im starting 2 hate my songs.
those in my hp.
haha!!
dono why...
sick of it.

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Realy nothing 2 do...
i wan go sentosa!!!
=P

and err..
yesterday i gt a Dream!!
haha!!
i dream of someone i met on national day..
hmm...haha..
of cos. a gerl la!!

Girls Are Polluting My mind..
i mean i kept tinking of them in my head..
i wan my own self BACK!!!!
i tinking im no longer me..
Or ive change TOO MUCH...

*hungry* ...Hee...

EnGlIsH TeSt WaS RuShInG FoR TiMe.
GeOg WaS OuT Of MeMoRy.DoNo HoW To ExPlAiN AnD StUfF.
AfTer 2Nd ReCeSs, DuRiNg PhYsIcS LeSsOn.
A MaLaY TeAcHeR ToOk OvEr.ShE WaS LiKe ArIfF SiS.
I MeAn LoOkS As If ShEs A SiS Of ArIfF.
ShE DiNt CaRe WaT We DiD.
N I TuRnEd My Hp SpEaKeR To FuLl BlAsT.
N WaS SiNgiNg SoFtLy. hAhA..
SkOoL EnDeD.
ThReW CaRdBoArDs ArOuNd.
AnD UnLuCkY ArIfF WeNt InTo OuR ClAsS,
I ThReW OnE AnD HiT HiS FoReHeAd.
MaRkSmAn!!
HeAd ShOt!!..
HaHa. Of CoS, sAiD SoRy La.
At MuSiC RoOm.
ClOsEd ThE DoOr WhIlE HaKiM WaS PeEpInG InSiDe,
So..
HaHa!!
HiiT HiS HeAd.
TaTs 2 HeAdS I HuRt ToDaY!
HaHa..
FiNiSh CoNfErEnCe.
MeT WiTh ThE ReSt.
DiD SoMe trAiNiNg..
WeNt OuTsIdE SkOoL.
PlAyD SoCcEr WiTh RoNaLfIaNo.ErIkA.
ThE ReSt Nt SuRe Of the NaMeS.
I PlAyEd V Gd.
UsEd My TaKrAw SkIlL MoRe ThAn SoCcEr.
FlIp AnD kiCkD.
AlMoSt ScOrEd.
DaMn NiCe!! ThE WaY i KiCkEd.
ShOwEd OfF!!! HeEe...

GoT HoMe!! By 6+..
EaT , ShOwEr N StuFf...
StUdY AbiT...

HeYy WaTs Up EvErYOdY.?!



HeEhEe.



I'm FiNe,



EnJoYnG ThEsE DaYs TaT PaSt ToO FaSt.



EvEn WhEn EnJoYiNg MySeLf,



ThErEs SoMe ThOtS ThAtS On My MiNd.



ThEsE ThOtS..



I WuD LoVe To TyPe It OuT.



BuT,I DoN't MeAn To AfFeCt NyOnE.



BuT, I'm SuRe. iT WiLl.



AnD I ShUd Be SoRy,To MaKe YoU TiNk Of It.







NO...I WoNt PoSt ThIs.



YES...I WiLl. [chosen]







So, hErE It GoEs.



I'vE MeT MaNy GeRlS.



AnD HoNeStLy. I AdMiRe MaNy Of ThEm.



JuS LiKe I AdMiRe ThIs OnE SpEcIaL GeRl.



YoU KnOw WhO YoU ArE.



I HaVe KnOwN HeR FoR AlmOsT ThReE YeArS NoW.



AnD We WeRe BeSt FrEnS.



We WeRe MoRe ThAn ThAt,ThAt WaS DeN.



TiMe FlIeS.



EvErYtHiNg ChAnGeS.



BuT, oNe ThInG DiNt ChAnGe.



I SeRiOuSlY NeEd HeLp.



BuT. i KnOw, nO-oNe CaN.



ThE PrObLeM LiEs In MySeLf.



OnE SiMpLe PrObLeM.



ThE ThOtS Of HeR Is StUcK In My HeAd, oR,



ShUd I SaY. HeArT.



I'm SoRrY.



I'vE WaStEd YoUr TiMe WiTh Me.



I'vE WaStEd My ChAnCe.



I KnOw YoU GaVe Me ThAt ChAnCe.



AnD I ReGrEt.



YoO SaId YoU'd WaIt.



BuT,I'M NoT GoNa GrOw Up.



MaYbE I WiLl, NoT SuRe WhEn.



BuT, ThE ThInG Is ThAt.



SoMeHoW, I NeEd YoU.



MaYbE As A FrEn. MaYbE As MoRe ThaN ThAt.



ThIs Is A NeVer EnDiNg StOrY.



YoU HaVe YoUr OwN HeArt.



Of CoS I No ThAt.



YoU MaY HaVe OtHeR NaMeS In It.



I DoN't KnOw.



I CaNt GeT WaT I WaNt Jus Lyk TaT.



AnD I'm ReAlY CoNfUsInG MySeLf.



BeCoS I'm RuNiNg AwAy FrOm YoU.BuT,



I'm TeLlInG MySeLf ThAt I WaNt YoU.



NoW YoU No WaTs My PrObLem.



I'm BeCoMiNg ScArEd Of YoU.



I WaNt To Be BaCk To YoU.



NoT So SoOn.



MaYbE AfTeR I'vE LeArnT.



AnD OnE MoRe ThInG.



Do YoU kNoW TaT,



I StIl HaVe ThOsE DrEaMs.



I StIl ReMeMbEr,tHoSe DaYs, AnD TiNkInG To MySeLf TaT I CuD HaV TrEaTeD YoU BeTeR.



I MiSs ThOsE DaYs.EvEn ThOu,



ItS UsElEsS TiNkInG Of It NoW.



I OwE YoU A HuG.



AnD I HoPe YoU'lL FeEl It.











BuT, PlEaSe AfTeR NoW.AfTeR ReAdInG ThIs.



DoNt LoOk At Me In A DiFf WaY.



TrEaT Me As YoUr FrEn.



I'm SoRrY.



I'vE NeVeR LeT YoU Go.

TKT LOVES TO ENJOY...
while we were training[pull-ups, dips n more.. =) ]

UP TO THE MONKEY BAR..

WE WERE OSO DOING OTHER THINGS>>

FUN THINGS!!

THIS WAS ON 06 AUG..
TKT MONKEYS..

see hw tired i was on the nite b4..
the rest are on the day itself.

left to right>> NaNa (my couzin), me, alif (my bro), khairul (my couzin), shima (my sis).




lights of the NITESS








YUMMYS...

Mr & Mrs Bride

My Kampong Days In Malaysia. Kempas, i tink...

my couzin gtng married..

the mrs bride!!

lazy to type..

hee..enjoy the pics...

dono hw to arrange the pics..

haha..sorry for any inconvinience caused..

i'll be blogging aft stoppin for awhile..

no time..